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[Mar. 7th, 2004|02:23 pm] |
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before i forget these curious phrases in my head
the rythms of words and cadence of rhyme
i thought i'd sit down
and write something to commemorate
this sudden eloquence
write a monumental essay
thesis on life, and love
and why we cry
but i've decided
basically
that pretty girls
with vapid empty smiles
are as valuable as the thin
hard smiles
of the cynics and atheists of this
brokedown world
that some people learn by living
some by appearing beautiful
was it so long ago that i mourned the non-glances
of the boys in their pickups
morning rituals a eulogy to the absence
of anyone anywhere amazed and dazzled
by my beauty
i wanted to be wanted
because i was wantable
i wanted to be an object
something to be laminated and
centerfolded
soon sticky and faded
but worshiped
another medusa
you want to press my weight underneath yours
swallow the snake length of my living hair
clutch this untouchable flesh
but i look at you
darling, sweet baby mine
and your pretty features turn to stone
and your blood into wine
running through my veins
another conquest
i doubt your love if you
doubt the unsurpassed significance of my form
and figure
that i don't keep
how now? brown cow?
the eloquence is fading
the ink is drying
my fate is slowly being sealed
so kiss me
the last for me
the beginning, for you
why don't you hate me
that would make it easier
a tangible
visible dark thread severed
by your malignant glances
i desperate spoke to save you
doubt not that in the moment
that i loved you most
i was yet trying to bring you down
to my level
i didn't know yet that love
was wanting you to be happy
and whole
and whatever you want to be
without clinging to you
hoping to keep you with me
this medusa is crumbling
a dark stone appalled by my own
unveiled disillusionment
if you had asked me
i would have denied it |
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